Could have been better...

I was having such good results I got lazy.  I have kind of taken the last 2 days "off" - not that I've gone crazy eating or anything but I haven't been real strict about what I eat and I've backed off the exersize.  Tonight I feel it.  I already feel sluggish and tired and fat instead of fat but energized.  At least I recognize it so tomorrow I will get up and Zumba again.  Then it's off to chaperone my oldests class to the Washington History Museum.  That should be fun.  It's been years since I've been down there so it should be interesting. 

I also recognized that part of the laziness both in eating and exersizing came because I was feeling overwhelmed.   Work, home, the boys, my spouses' issues (which he continues to try and put on my shoulders to resolve and even though I won't it's exhausting dealing with him about it), car issues, finances, etc - just kind of all piled up and I felt overwhelmed so I took a shortcut in the easiest area for me: my food and exersize routine. And yet that is the area I need to keep up on because it is what will most help me deal with everything else in my life.  If I am eating healthy and exersizing I will feel strong, capable and far less stressed.  I have to remember that I am making my health a top priority for me and I can't let other issues take that focus away from me.

One thing I have tried to incorporate into my days is what I call "little bursts" - and that is exactly what I do.  I try to throw some extra little thing in whenever I get up from my desk.  When I go to the bathroom I do 10 wall push-ups and 10 dips to help work on my arms (and with the amount of water I drink these days I go to the bathroom at least once an hour); when I have to go downstairs or out on the floor I throw an extra trip up and down the stairs; little things like that.  It's not great concentrated effort but I figure every little bit helps, right?

SO - tomorrow it is back to the Zumba, the "little bursts", and the healthy choices.

Productive and Proactive!

I know the day isn't over yet but I have some plans for later in the day and I'm not sure I'll get a chance to post later.  It has been a busy day so far; laundry, cleaning, playing with the boys, etc.  Now my oldest has his friends over and you can't really tell I cleaned the living room but at least I know it STARTED clean!  I also made some steps to set myself up for the week.  Safeway had a BOGO Free on family packs of boneless, skinless chicken breasts so I picked up 2 packs.  I then broke them down into packs of 2 for freezing.  Some I even pre-seasoned so that they will marinate as they defrost when I take them out of the freezer.  I also cleaned and cut a bunch of radishes, celery and carrots and stuck them in containers of water in the fridge; and cut up a bunch of melon and stuck it into the fridge as well.  Now I have quick, easy, healthy snacks and easy dinners set up ready to go for the week.  So far today I have been really good; made a breakfast burrito with Egg Beaters, a little avacado, and a bunch of tomato.  Then for lunch I had tuna on a light english muffin with tomato and radish.  I'm going to try to get on the Wii Fit Plus later today after I kick all the kids out of the house!

I feel good about the choices I have made today so far and I feel like I am setting myself up for a great week.  Talked with my mom today and found out that she and my dad are still planning on coming to visit at some point this summer.  Probably in late June.  That is fantastic in that I miss them terribly (they live in Pennsylvania) and my mom usually tries to cook healthy these days; but she cooks a lot.  I try to tell her to take it easy and not do anything but relax while she is here but bless her heart, she cooks and cleans anyway.  Which I admit, I don't fight too hard.  It is awfully nice to have someone helping me out for a bit!! There is always way too much food and that leads to me overeating and oversnacking.  So I'll need to make sure to plan in advance for that and talk with her about meal ideas that help to support my weight loss efforts while still fulfilling her need to make sure her family is well fed at all times! 

Started weak, ended strong.

Stressful day today.  It started out OK but then Mike came by and that really stresses me out and I found myself starting to eat all the wrong things and a lot of them.  I realized what I was doing and with a rather herculean effort managed to make myself stop and do a little exersize, not much but it stopped my binge.  I also got him out of the house with strict instructions that I wouldn't see him until next weekend.  (FYI - Mike is my husband and he isn't living at home right now.  He needs some time to work on some issues he has and to get his life together and I need some time as well.  We try to have a "visitation" during the weekend days so that he and the boys can spend some time together and he and I can work on our relationship too.)  There has been a lot of friction there and too often turn to food to comfort myself.  I simply can't allow that to continue to happen.  I need to be in charge of my life and stop letting anyone elses actions drive my reactions.  Eating myself silly never really makes me feel better and just makes me more unhappy in the end.  It's kind of like swallowing poison yourself and then waiting for the other person to die. Not the most effective way to go about things.

Later, the boys and I went to a friends son's birthday party and yes, I had a little cake and ice cream and 2 small cream puffs (and man was it all delicious!) but I'm not going to beat myself up over that.  I came home and did a little more exersize and simply stopped eating for the night.  Tomorrow already feels like it is going to be a good day.  I have all the right foods in the house and I already have a plan for some exersize.

So while I did overeat today, I feel like I made a lot of progress in standing up for myself and taking control of my life.  Another positive is that I hopped on the scale today and I'm down about 6 pounds from the last time I hopped on that scale - which was a while ago.  My WW meeting is closed tomorrow so I won't have another weigh-in until next Monday.  That gives me time to offset the damage I did to myself today and get a little more weight off before then.  I don't know where my scale at home falls in comparison to the one at my meeting - I know it is off a little.  I keep meaning to come home from my weigh-in at WW and then get on the one at home to compare but I always forget.  So until I manage to remember to do that I just use it as I guide to see if I'm going up or down.  I use my WW weigh-in as my official weight.  So I have another week to continue to push myself and see what kind of progress I can make!