Gave in to the stress....

I didn't journal what I ate Tuesday because I was so exhausted I could barely think.  The baby had me up all night Monday and ended up taking him to the emergency room at 3am.  I am NOT the kind of person who whisks her kids off to the ER or doctor for every cough, scrape or dazed look but things were pretty bad for the little guy.  Really glad I did because he had a bronchial infection that was also starting to settle in as an ear infection in both ears.  Got him on antibiotics and he is doing SO much better now!  Back to his sweet self.  The downside is that I was awake from 5:30am Monday until Tuesday night.  I didn't have any energy left to journal!!  But, I hardly had any energy to eat either so I didn't do too badly! 

Yesterday tho, I started off so well.  But things got pretty stressful later in the day and at 8:30 last night I took a dozen vegetable pot stickers, steamed them, fried them brown in oil, and ate every single bite.  Along with 2 big glasses of milk, and then followed up with not 1 but 2 pudding cups (Sugar Free and only 60 calories each, but still - 2?!)  And then I just went to bed.  That was a LOT of calories and points, all because I decided to eat rather than do something active to deal with my stress.  I feel really bad about that this morning.  SO - today I will have to be extra good.  It's no use obsessing over yesterday, I can't change it, but I can learn from it.  I can make the choice to not do the self-sabatoge thing again!

Overall, a positive week!

Let me just start with that carmelized onion quiche I was going on about.  I made it and I LOVE IT!  The crust was made with gluten free flour and I threw some flax seeds for crunch.  Although I was mildly surprised that the gluten free flour saved me absolutely nothing in terms of points values I still presume that it was at least a little healthier for me than bleached white flour.  While the onions were carmelizing - a process that takes a fantastically long time and leaves you smelling like onions the rest of the day - I took a block of light tofu, water, nutritional yeast (amazing find, that.  Great way to add protein, nutrients and flavor. Why am I just now learning about these things?!?!?), and spices and blended it all together.  Then I mixed it with the carmelized onions and some broccoli, poured it into the crust and baked it up.  It was really good!  And only 7 points per serving.  It needs some tweaking, but I'll make it again.

MorningStar Farms has become my new best friend in terms of breakfast or quick dinners.  One thing I found myself craving lately was bacon.  I adore bacon.  A LOT of bacon - crispy, yummy, bacon!  mmmmm.  Obviously, it's not an option now.  So I discovered MorningStar Farms breakfast "bacon" strips.  Will it pass for bacon?  Not    on    your    life.  But, it smells and tastes just barely enough like bacon to trick my mind into thinking it's getting some.  As long as I don't eat it on it's own.  Put it on a sandwich with a "burger" or some EggBeaters and it works just fine.  

So what happened on the scale today?  Let's review the fact that I had a good week.  I stayed within points 5 out of the 7 days and even so, still didn't use all of my weekly allowance.  Even Saturday, the little ones first birthday party, I snacked on veggies and had a small piece of cake.  I was actually excited to get on the scale tonight.  I hopped up and I was down.  I was down 0.8 lbs.  That's it.  Not even one full pound.  Ok - I know, I KNOW: I'm supposed to be happy that I went down, I'm supposed to celebrate all the good changes I've made, I'm supposed to concentrate on the fact that I'm losing at a good, healthy, keep-it-off-forever rate, I'm supposed to remember that weight loss doesn't always happen on the scale.  I KNOW!!  But really?  I really, really, really, really wanted that big, confirming, "yes you are doing the right thing" loss THIS week.  I thought for sure it would happen.  I'm not talking a biggest loser 17 pound loss.  I would be overjoyed with 4 or 5 pounds.  But I really am happy that it was a loss.  I am.  And I'm going to keep doing what I've been doing.  And I'm already thinking about dinner tomorrow night.  I'm thinking quinoa with spinach, shallots, mushrooms and maybe tomato.  What do you think?