Oh my God. So here I am not really blogging even once a week. I know, I should do it more often. I mean, geez - look at the girl who made sure the news knew all about the fact that she blogged weekly to keep her on track. Let's face it tho - I'm not doing this for fame or notoriety or for anyone else other than myself. I'm also really busy and really lazy so I just plain don't do it as much as I should. Deal with it.

Anyway - I pretty much decided that I would rather eat, drink and be merry over the holidays than lose weight. And NO - I didn't excersize either. That does not exactly go hand-in-hand with the whole "eat, drink, and be merry" scenario. Of course, the holidays have been over for a few weeks and I'm still gaining. I guess I need to get serious about it. I have discovered that I LOVE vegetables. LOVE them! I sautee' cut brussels sprouts in a pan with garlic and some cooking spray. I also shake califlower and broccoli in a bag with garlic, onion, salt & pepper and bake it for a few minutes and eat the crap out of that too! I love grapefruit, tofu, oranges, apples, carrots, etc. The problem is that I will also eat a massive amount of fettucine with chicken, garlic cloves and capers in a garlic cream sauce along with a few slices of bread, a bowl of minestrone soup, and top it all off with a triple chocolate mousse cake. It's portion control and self control I'm having an issue with here.

So how did I do overall? I'm up to 260.
YES - you read that right. I gained so much weight that I'm now 2 pounds heavier than when I was when I started this blog. Fun times, eh? Some people have said "really that's not so bad - it's not like you have to lose 20lbs again or anything" but that's not the point. The point is that despite the fact that I'm on WW and have a gym membership, I've simply managed to make myself fatter and I now have to "re-lose" all the weight I had already lost.

Sigh.

And once again I start again. I'm like a car wreck - you know you can't stop staring and comparing your awesomeness to me. Doesn't matter. It WILL sink in and take root. I know it will. I just need to keep trying.