Well, here I am back after forever away. Can't say I'll post daily or even weekly but I think I need to get back to it.
Let's see, what I have been doing? Losing weight - yes! And no. And yes again! And then no again. Can you feel the wind on that roller coaster?!
Going to school - may be going to school the rest of my natural life if I don't buckle down again. I can only manage about 12 units per term on top of working full time, church, volunteer work and of course my boys. They do take a lot of time - but we have fun! Bug is 13 and my Sweet Potato is 5 now. It is an adventure.
Frustrating and infuriating. I'm mad at myself because if I just stuck with anything I would be more where I want to be and not even further from it than I was when I first started this blog. But no. BUT, I'm not here to beat myself up. I'm here to start again. Current weight? Not a clue. Haven't stepped on a scale in months. So what am I doing this time? No set diet - just a series of life changes that NEED to become permanent. And I mean NEED. My health has taken a bit of a dive. Blood pressure is up; I get winded doing simple things; my back, hip and knees ache terribly; I don't sleep well. It's pretty awful. I'm only 47 and if I plan on being an active and interesting 100-year-old I better turn this crap around. Right now I've cut the carbs drastically. No, I'm not doing Atkins but I need to get my carb craving under control because it leads to massive over-eating, a ton of excess calories, etc. It's hard because I love bread. And pasta. And pasta with bread. So I'm cutting it out for a little while and then will add it back in slowly later. Except for game nights. I have given myself permission to eat & drink anything on game nights!
So yup, I'm back. We'll see how well I stick with it this time!
Let's see, what I have been doing? Losing weight - yes! And no. And yes again! And then no again. Can you feel the wind on that roller coaster?!
Going to school - may be going to school the rest of my natural life if I don't buckle down again. I can only manage about 12 units per term on top of working full time, church, volunteer work and of course my boys. They do take a lot of time - but we have fun! Bug is 13 and my Sweet Potato is 5 now. It is an adventure.
Frustrating and infuriating. I'm mad at myself because if I just stuck with anything I would be more where I want to be and not even further from it than I was when I first started this blog. But no. BUT, I'm not here to beat myself up. I'm here to start again. Current weight? Not a clue. Haven't stepped on a scale in months. So what am I doing this time? No set diet - just a series of life changes that NEED to become permanent. And I mean NEED. My health has taken a bit of a dive. Blood pressure is up; I get winded doing simple things; my back, hip and knees ache terribly; I don't sleep well. It's pretty awful. I'm only 47 and if I plan on being an active and interesting 100-year-old I better turn this crap around. Right now I've cut the carbs drastically. No, I'm not doing Atkins but I need to get my carb craving under control because it leads to massive over-eating, a ton of excess calories, etc. It's hard because I love bread. And pasta. And pasta with bread. So I'm cutting it out for a little while and then will add it back in slowly later. Except for game nights. I have given myself permission to eat & drink anything on game nights!
So yup, I'm back. We'll see how well I stick with it this time!
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