Why can't emotional eating mean downing a giant spinach salad?!?

I mean, right?  :) 
I haven't exactly been following through on posting more often.  In fact, I haven't been following through on a LOT of things these last 2 weeks or so.  It has been a really emotional couple of weeks for me and I've been wallowing around in a self-pity-mudpit allowing it to get the best of me.  Earlier today I had come to the firm decision to kick this to the curb, pull myself together, and come back stronger than ever.  But now tonight I just want to curl  up into a ball again.  And to top it off instead of saying "well, I've had a setback, lets get back on it" I find myself dwelling on just how much weight I could have lost by now had I stuck with the program and increased my excersize.  Instead I'm losing the same 5-6 pounds over and over again.  It's disgusting, stupid, and instead of being a catalyst I've allowed it to become demoralizing and get the best of me.  AARRRGGHH. 

Anyway - on to at least something positive.  Even though Lent is over and I have re-introduced meat into my life I still try to keep at least 60% of my meals vegetarian.  My latest find is roasted radishes.  Yes - radishes.  Roasting them in the oven completely changes them!  It makes them sweet and creamy (not that there is anything wrong with normal, raw radishes - I chomp on them all the time).  Cut them in half, spray with some olive oil cooking spray, sprinkle with salt and roast in your oven at 400. When they are just done roasting brown a little butter in a pan (I use 1-2 Tablespoons of Earth Balance vegan "butter"), add the green tops of the radishes and cook them until just wilted.  Mix with the radishes and squeeze some fresh lemon over the top.  SO GOOD!.  In fact, that's what I'm having for dinner tomorrow night. 
I also got a new kitten.  My oldest named him Jimmy and he is a holy terror.  In fact he is right now systematically destroying the dining area in my apartment.  Last night he managed to climb into the baby's crib and was playing with his feet.  OF COURSE this woke up the baby and he wouldn't go back to sleep.  Jimmy and I had a "come-to-Jesus" meeting after that stunt.  OK, he just raced up my leg and arm, onto my shoulder and used my neck as a jumping off point.  I think I'm going to just go quietly bleed to death....gah.

Been real lax lately - I'm sorry!

I realized I've been exceedingly lax about posting the last week or so.  I enjoy doing this so just like I make time for myself to go to my WW meetings on Monday's, I need to make time for myself to write and post at LEAST a few times a week.  Even if it's short, at least it's something!

Well, I'm proud to say I was down again.  1 pound!  This makes 6 consecutive weigh-in's with a loss!!  Is it as much as I had hoped for?  No.  But I'm coming to accept and be happy with any loss, no matter how small.  It means I'm making the right choices often enough to make a difference in my weight and ultimately my health.

Tonight has not been so great.  I recognize that I have been doing some serious emotional eating and I even know what the trigger is, what emotions I am trying to appease with food, but I didn't choose to stop.  Some might say that it is a huge step just to recognize that I AM doing the emotional eating thing and even a bigger step to know what those emotions are.  That is the first move toward avoiding it in the future.  I think it's just a moment of sheer weakness.  I realize it's all emotional, I know what those emotions are and what triggered them, and I said "oh good - that's why" and reached for another piece of peanut butter toast.  5 of them.  YES - 5.  I now feel so sick and bloated but God help me, I still want another piece.  I'm not going to have one, but I want it.  I'm going to have to walk about 10,000 miles to offset tonight!!   I guess this leads me to the question of tonight, and of all time, WHY?  WHY do I see what it is and yet continue to feed it, rather than fix it?  I know I'm not the only one that does this.  What tips do you guys have to help me with this?

A positive note is that I am doing the Beat The Bridge 5K next month for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation.  This is a week before the WW 5K challenge.  I'm glad I'm doing this.  I don't really have any problem walking a 5K course, I just enjoy the fact that I will be out doing it. 
In case you want to check it out please go to http://www.beatthebridge.org/site/TR/Events/General?px=1530509&pg=personal&fr_id=1150 
You can check out the cause, the race, or even choose to support me and my team and make a donation.

Well, that's it for tonight.   I really want to say thank you for those of you who follow me and for everyone who has posted comments for me.  Your insight, encouragement and stories are helpful and inspirational to me!! 

YAY! Finally a weight loss that is more than just what shoes I had on!!

Finally!  I broke the 0.8 streak I had been on!  Whoo hoo!  This last week I managed to lose 1.2 pounds.  I am very happy about this.  I mean really, .8?  That's like wearing a lighter pair of shoes or a light blouse instead of a sweater!  I feel really driven to see just how much I can lose next week.  I’m also a little concerned because I had a couple not-so-great days last week yet I still lost.  I’m afraid that those days will come back to haunt me next week so I need to be ultra-focused this week to try and offset that.  I know didn’t do a very good job of writing last week.  I think I was feeling discouraged and overwhelmed, but I’m back on track now.  In all areas!! 

So how did I do on my goals?  I did wake up every morning and review my goals and my day in my head.  I managed to walk twice during my lunch break and had 2 productive workouts.  I need to stay a little more dedicated to make sure I make the goals I have set for myself.  Today I did a 2 mile walk with the boys after I got home from work.  I'm doing a couple of 5k's next month (WALKING, thank you.  I don't run!) but those aren't a concern to me.  5K is only a little more than 3 miles and I can do that easily.  My current personal goal is to walk my home route in reverse - it has this really long, really steep - I mean REALLY steep hill that kind of intimidates me.  The last time I walked up it I had to stop several times to catch my breath.  I want to walk all the way up that hill without stopping, while pushing the stroller, and not be gasping for breath at the top.  When I can do that I'll know I'm really making strides.  It is my version of the stairs in "Rocky" - only I think my hill is longer and harder to climb!  I'll have to research that.

Specifically tasty meals for the week: shredded potatos with kale, onions and mushrooms - baked and topped with a little shredded pepper jack cheese; "Meatball Subs" made with falafel meatballs; and my favorite one - garlic and spinach fettucine with roasted veggies.